It was a crime that shocked the entire country. Chris Watts admitted to killing his pregnant wife, Shanann, and his two daughters four-year-old Bella and three-year-old Celeste. Chris admitting to strangling Shanann and then smothering his two daughters with a blanket. After the murders, he buried his wife in a shallow grave at an oil field and placed the bodies of his two daughters in oil tanks. Celeste would have turned four tomorrow. Watts pleaded guilty to multiple counts of first-degree murder and was sentenced to four life sentences without the possibility of parole. Now his mother is revealing that her son has written her a letter where he claims to be a changed man.
Cindy Watts, Chris's mother, was recently interviewed as part of a new HLN special: Killer Dad: Chris Watts Speaks that aired this past weekend. During the special, Cindy Watts reads a letter from her son that claims he's a changed man now as he has found God. “I’m still a Dad! I’m still a son! No matter what," the letter reads. "Now, I can add servant of God to that mix! He has shown me peace, peace, love, and forgiveness, and that’s how I live every day.”
It will be a difficult sentiment for many to believe given the atrocity of Watts' crimes. Watts initially pretended to be a worried husband after reporting his family missing. He told news agencies that he was praying for their safe return before police discovered cracks in his story. It was later revealed that Watts had been having an affair with co-worker Nichol Kessinger who believed he was separated from his wife. Watts and Kessinger had gone on trips together and even shared photos with each other, which Watts used a secret app to hide on his phone. After being arrested, Watts then told police that he only murdered his wife after she killed their two daughters, before finally admitting the truth.
The HLN series, now available on the network OnDemand, exposes "secret videos that document a series of chilling murders from start to finish—revealing lies, a scandalous affair, and a shocking cover-up."
According to PEOPLE, Watts is serving his sentences in a Wisconsin prison where he is on 23-hour lockdown with little more to do than read a Bible. He does have pictures of his family in his cell, which he says he speaks to and that he reads a book to the daughters he murdered every night.
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