Homecoming: A film by Beyoncé, is now airing on Netflix and promises to be an in-depth look at the artist’s celebrated and iconic performance at Coachella in 2018. What makes Beyoncé's performance even more incredible is that all the planning and preparation for what should go down in history as the perfect Coachella performance of all time was done just after she gave birth to twins, Sir and Rumi.
In the documentary, the artist reveals that she had “an extremely difficult pregnancy,” as a result of developing preeclampsia. “My body went through more than I knew it could,” she said. The mom of three also opened up about learning she was pregnant with twins and having to postpone her scheduled Coachella performance in 2017. “I was supposed to do Coachella the year prior, but I got pregnant unexpectedly,” the singer says in footage from Homecoming. “And it ended up being twins which was even more of a surprise.”
Perhaps even more surprising were the health issues that accompanied her pregnancy. The singer revealed that she had to undergo an emergency c-section because, “In the womb, one of my babies’ hearts paused a few times."
She also opened up and revealed that she weighed 218 pounds on the day she delivered her twins and that the road to recovery was less than smooth as she prepared for her Coachella performance. Like many women, Beyoncé found herself struggling with her post-baby body and how to find her way back to herself.
“There were days that I thought, you know, I’d never be the same," she said, echoing what so many other mothers feel after labor. "I’d never be the same physically, my strength and endurance would never be the same,” she says. “In the beginning, it was so many muscle spasms. Just, internally, my body was not connected. My mind was not there. My mind wanted to be with my children. What people don’t see is the sacrifice. I would dance, and go off to the trailer, and breast-feed the babies, and the days I could, I would bring the children.”
She spoke about her struggles to connect to the music and choreography despite feeling disconnected from herself. “And you know, a lot of the choreography is about feeling, so it’s not as technical, it’s your own personality that brings it to life. That’s hard when you don’t feel like yourself,” she revealed. “I had to rebuild my body from cut muscles. It took me a while to feel confident enough to … give my own personality.”
She also spoke openly about having her own doubts that she'd ever be the same performer she was before her twins.
“It’s my first time home back home on the stage after giving birth; I’m creating my own homecoming, and it’s hard,” Beyoncé also said. “There were days that I thought I’d never be the same. I’d never be the same physically, my strength and endurance would never be the same.”
She went on to share how challenging it was to balance it all. "I would dance and go off to the trailer and breastfeed the babies, the days I could I would bring the children," Beyoncé shares.
"I’m just trying to figure out how to balance being the mother of a 6-year-old and twins that need me and giving myself creativity," she added. "Physically, it was a lot to juggle. It’s like, before I could rehearse 15 hours straight. I have children, I have a husband, I have to take care of my body."
Homecoming is streaming now on Netflix.